Free spirit

I was not like everyone else, simply because I didn’t care about things. Instead, my heart yearned for new places, people, and experiences that would inspire me to become greater in spirit and live as freely, as my heart loved.

You see, right now, I am just chasing the things that makes me happy. I am chasing the things that feed my soul. And to be honest with everyone. I could care less about anybody else is doing. I could care less about anybody else thinks.

I do not know how I came to be like this, how I ended up here. I only know that I am now- wild and reckless. Bold and unapologetic!

Location: Mumbai

I am the designer of my own catastrophy.

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Time lapse

The desire to get married is a basic and primal instinct in women. It’s followed by another basic and primal instinct: the desire to be single again.

Nora Ephron

Picture Location: mumbai

Some thoughts just cross my mind in a flash of second that gives me pause to think over it again and again.

Love loves to love love. (Think over it)

First and Last

I didn’t lose him; I had to let him go.

I didn’t get over him, I had to move on.

I didn’t lose feelings for him; I had to walk away.

I didn’t let him go; I had to push him away.

I didn’t forget about him; I had to cut him off.

I didn’t want things to end; I just did what’s best for me.

I didn’t want to break up; I just wasn’t to handle it anymore.

I didn’t want to leave his life; I just needed time for myself.

It’s just got to the point where I put myself first for once

And I decided it was time for me and him to go his separate ways.

I’d run back to him in a Heartbeat, but for now, I just need to be on my own.

##Some alone time but first coffee!

Another day. Another beginning!

No calls and no messages! Distance changes everything. I have been in love before, it’s like a narcotic. At first it brings the euphoria of complete surrender. The next day you want more. You are not addicted yet, but you like the sensation. You also think that you can control things. But then you get used to that person and the independence changes to completely dependent on that person. And then at the last stage, just an addict steal and humiliate themselves to get what they want, you are willing to do anything for love.

I met so many after him but nothing attracts me as he did. He has magnetic vibes that disturbed me. His charismatic and captivating personality makes women crazy for him. Well, I was one of the woman sadly who got irresistible.

Interesting part of my life!

I stopped crying because it’s over but started smiling because it happened to me. My experience of life is not divided into chapters; it is tragic, romantic, horrifying, comical, science fiction, travel and much more. I wish, I could be luckier with bit pornography.

I told my friend once I wasn’t good at anything. She told me survival is talent. I took it as regard!

C’est la vie ( that’s life)

The things that make life downhearted are regret and expectations. They both exist in a time that is not now.

We regret for something that is done in past or that we could have done. And then comes expectations, devil in mind to turn things up and down. Moreover, life happened between chase and escape; rise and set; gain and loss; birth and death. There is so much in it to explore and then just two things to make it wretched and broken.

Although, to sustain in between life and death, I lie between giving up and trying again!

A lot of people say that I run from the situations rather than facing them patiently. I give up on things easily. But, the bravest thing I ever did was continuing my life when I wanted to die. I tired not to give up in those situations. Now, it doesn’t matter what they think of me and talking behind my back.

A lot of people out there faces similar situation or worst than we could imagine and are fighting everyday. I salute them for their courage! I am not saying that I am the bravest of them. It is just that I am the weakest of all.

People will not rescue you in hardships. It is 100% your life and it is your responsibility. Whatever feelings you have within you are attracting your tomorrow. Worry attracts more worry and dissatisfaction attracts more dissatisfaction. Happiness attracts more happiness, peace attracts more peace, and joy attracts more joy. Our job is inside one.

To change our world, all we have to do is change the way we feel inside.

Its a summer but a cup of tea will save my day!

Sunset

The sky takes on shades of orange during sunrise and sunset, the colour that gives you hope that the sun will set only to rise again.

-Ram Charan

I cry very easily. It can be a movie, a phone conversation, a sunset – tears are words waiting to be written.

Black and white photography

I work in colour sometimes, but I guess the images I most connect to, historically speaking, are in black and white. I see more in black and white – I like the abstraction of it.

– Mary Ellen Mark

Picture credit: Sayan Mondal

He travelled the length and breadth of the city to capture the essence of this unique land, and he has succeeded. I love it. It’s beautiful. Thankyou

Bipolar Human

People pass each other staring at other’s eye and yet do not understand the truth behind the face. The two faced man is difficult to understand in one go. Generally, they behave as per their character but there is something about behaviour that is hidden somewhere inside them. They do not show it untill any unfavourable conditions come across them.

I met so many and yet believe that they would behave differently in odds which they do; but, not in the way, I think they would do. These are the reasons why relationship comes to full stop.

The two faced man dominates over every situation and relation. A boy when doesn’t find fit in a relation, they walk away. When a girl find someone better in life, they move on. They never anticipate the loss and pain the other would bear after they left them in agony. I believe play “the game of the illusion” of control. We sink in the illusion of being in control of the situation with our pulses, not realising that we are playing the game wrongly. Humans are incapable of knowing themselves fully. They flip the world apart in real situations breaking every bond of emotions. The two faced man is hard to manipulate but even harder to comprehend.

Situations define our actions, our intentions, and our reaction. However, men themselves cannot define their true behaviour. It is the second bipolar human that defines the first. I was privileged to talk to someone who showed some weird “reflex” actions to the situations where I was amazed to see him. As usual, I was observing that man with his deeds and knew the other face of bipolar human. His words were inspiring where for the situation I was going through depression. He got so much generosity and calmness that was rare to see these days. That face of bipolar human was provoking a positive vibe in me that was lost somewhere.

Let’s jump to simple instance of our daily life where I can connect to each bipolar human reading this. I have seen one thing over time, I might be wrong, or it may depend on human nature but it has often been true to me.

The ruthless two faced man tend to not like sad stories, by stories I am not talking about the novel and books, I am talking about the real life tragedies and sometimes situations on normal note. The other human would hate to listen when I talk about the sad and depressing situations going in my life, but in return he would still expect to get an ear or two when he himself is in such gloomy.

Human nature is evil, and goodness is caused by intentional activity.